draggingyoudown

draggingyoudown @ 2008-06-03T12:02:00

2008-06-03T19:02:37Z

for the record.

draggingyoudown @ 2008-04-22T09:43:00

2008-04-22T16:44:05Z

Create your own Friend Test here

Bad News.

2008-04-03T20:05:31Z

I never did like highschool much.
The he said she said of it all.

draggingyoudown @ 2008-03-13T10:43:00

2008-03-13T17:44:00Z

I don't think anyone knows how hard it is to keep EVERYONE happy

Nothing could be more normal.

2008-03-12T18:03:18Z

Things I condone often looked down upon.
1.Smoking, weed or cigarettes, sometimes its better for everyone.
2.Teen parents, a lot of them rock a lot more then most adult parents I know.
3.Communism, in it's purest form.
4.Spending hours playing video games, because who doesn't need mindless actions in their life.
5.Grudges, I think holding grudges is better than forgiving those undeserving. And man can I hold a grudge.
6.Harry Potter, the world should come to terms with the fact that fantasy OWNS reality.
7.Underage drinking, it's sad when adults do it, when your younger it's all in good fun.
8.The Death Penalty, but really only for people who I decide deserves it, ex. Murders, Rapists, Child Molesters.
9.Plotting, I feel no need to explain this.
10.Speeding, the speed limits cause more accidents then they prevent.

This may seem random but I felt a compulsive urge to do it.

In other news, Gavins Party ROCKED!
He's almost saying Mama.
Score!

I can kinda Rock ROCK BAND, as long as I'm sober while playing.

And I'm super grumpy today, due to the fact that Dorothy's obnoxiously loud voice woke my baby-face up at 6am, thus throwing off everything he knows about life. And HPFF is down.

Love you all, well most of you anyways.

I really want Lemonade. From the Attic. Really I just want to go to the Attic.

Stolen from Teresa who in turn stole it from Ali

2008-03-06T17:05:15Z

1. Pick 10 of your favorite movies.
2. Go to IMDb and find a quote from each movie.
3. Post them here for everyone to guess.
4. Strike it out when someone guesses correctly, and put who guessed it and the movie.
5. NO GOOGLING/using IMDb search or other search function

~~1."Attacked by Christmas toys? That's strange, that's the second toy complaint we've had"~~ Nightmare Before Christmas, Heidi
~~2."The spiders, they want me to tap dance, I don't want to tap dance."~~Prisoner of Askaban, Heidi
3.~~"You're my parents, for God's sake, stop trusting me."~~Get Over It, Teresa
~~4."I've got a stomach full of Xanax. I took what was left of a bottle. It might have been too much."~~Fight Club, Heidi
~~5. "Yes, you are a guy. Quite a guy. Oh my. Hey, that rhymes! Yikes. Bikes! "~~ Never been Kissed, Heidi
6.~~"ENGLISH, MOTHERFUCKER! DO-YOU-SPEAK-IT? "~~ Pulp Fiction, Teresa
7. "A roger, a love wand, joy stick, dong, zipper lizard, tally whacker, trouser snake, schlong! "
~~8."That's a rather tender subject. Another slice, anyone? "~~ Rocky Horror Picture Show, Heidi
9.~~"I'm not obsessing. I'm just curious. "~~ American Beauty, Teresa
10.~~"There comes a time, the possum said, when if all else fails just play dead."~~ The Swan Princess, Ali!

For the record, those are less my favorite movies and more 10 movies that came to mind.

Run quick!

2008-03-03T10:57:05Z

Sleep...Oh How I long for sleep.

But in other news this was intended on being a rant about my angsty teenage view of the world and how I hate people who think there cool, despite the fact that I'm pretty sure I'm THE shit.

But I'm too tired for that, and also not making much sense.

Maybe I'll smoke a cigarette..

But I felt the need to update, my poor LJ is denied a lot.

Maybe cause I out grew angry Lj updates when I out grew Hawthorne Heights.... Oh who know?

And a better question, who gives a fuck?

It goes to show.

2008-02-20T16:05:27Z

Freshmen year seems to be the farthest thought from my mind,
my day is filled with diapers and babies.
my conversations of safe food and baby proofing,
So why does the hallow image of my Freshmen self stand invisibly next to me
Glancing casually at my actions, begging me to retreat.
How does the world move unbeknown to the patrons of this planet,
circling imaginably fast in a universe our capacity for intelligence will never be able to grasp.
Why do I never seem to tire of laughing at people and there petty problems,
there teenage angst if you will,
Yet I partake in the lowest of low actions.
Gossip.
I feed breathe and live off the drama.
I hate you
She hates me.
It's all a careless cycle.
The greatest prize of all is that of contentment.

draggingyoudown @ 2008-02-06T09:35:00

2008-02-06T17:35:38Z

Simplicity.

draggingyoudown @ 2008-01-30T11:14:00

2008-01-30T19:15:41Z

One day I'll learn how to talk to people without insinuating things...one day.

draggingyoudown @ 2008-01-02T16:11:00

2008-01-03T00:11:22Z

SLEEEEPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

draggingyoudown @ 2007-12-29T02:20:00

2007-12-29T10:22:19Z

Hum, so reading old greatestjournal entries has made me realize a few things about myself.
1. I was an annoying emo kid before it was in style
2. I was a self richious Know-It-All
3. I was so melo-dramtic it was almost painfull to read
And I've never been more proud of who I am today.

Nothing could be more normal.

2007-12-05T16:21:55Z

I'm starting to feel like the second December 1st comes, my life or at least some aspects of it turn to shit.
My mom always has this weird way of contacting me right around Christmas, she's done it every year since she took off.
And really it's starting to get old. I don't know what makes her think it's ok to just go in and out of my life whenever she pleases.
And really I don't need that. And then theres the buying and giving and exchanging Christmas presents, which is time consuming confusing and sometimes it hurts peoples feelings. Then there's the food and the family, not many reasons for the holiday spirit to try to shine down on me. I go through this every year, and I just sort of prepare myself for the worse and then wait for it to happen. But hey if were lucky this year there wont be any kidnapping.

Night of the living dead is on it's way.

2007-11-23T04:48:59Z

I hate this fucking day.
And everything about it.
Everything from the food, to the family.
Fuck it all

Confusion is nothing new....

2007-11-21T19:02:07Z

My head seems to be moving faster then the rest of the world,
I need to ground myself before I float off.

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-17T20:56:00

2007-11-18T04:56:24Z

My phoen has killed itself...or gavin more or less killed it

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-15T10:54:00

2007-11-15T18:58:26Z

Last Night was extremely fun.
And oddly I feel fine today, not too tired or anything.
The stars were amazing last night.
So was Saturn, though I'm pretty sure they all knew we were high.
So very very high.
And we had extremely adorable waitress, who now has short blond hair.
Oh! Today I decided too learn the "soulja boy"
I may not be able to "drop it like it's hott"
But I can soulja boy with the best of them.

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-13T18:57:00

2007-11-14T02:57:25Z

sick.

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-09T08:51:00

2007-11-09T16:55:54Z

Paramore was so effig amazing...Nether of the cars rides were though, however I wont get into that

Anyways Me and Carissa got way up in the sweaty sweaty front. And It was disturbingly amazing.
My heart was seriously a religious expirence...you know if you worship paramore. But it was so amazing.
I did fall once, i have a bruise on my neck where someone stepped on me, and my jaw has never hurt this bad in my life
Except when I broke it. But it was so worth it. Concerts just arn't concerts unless your in there clawing your way to the stage.
The merch stand was Chaos, they didnt have the right size in anything...But i got my bag and i love it.
Anyways I'll post the pictures i took later, there freakishly blurry but Hayley looks like an angel

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-07T10:10:00

2007-11-07T18:10:16Z

Sleep has been so good to me...

Time goes by so slowly and time, can do so much

2007-11-05T17:28:19Z

Growing up is the strangest sensation yet.
I guess we all in some way expected to stay how we were forever,
Young. Bicthy. Stupid. Depressed. Happy. Lying. Cheating. Angry.
Though were never going to lose sight of what used to be important to us
It's mearly shifting, I look back at when I used to cut, with fond memories.
As diluted as that sounds.
It's hard to explain but, being depressed and angry and stupid is all apart of this.
No one is ever always happy.
God speed your love, too me.
But currently with where most of our lives reside,
We don't have time to let emotion overcome us.
There a more important things to think about,
Though were all in different places were in different places together.
Were all learning this growing up thing at the same time.
Just in different ways.
Gavin is the center of my life, but that doesn't mean school or work isn't as substantial to other people.
Last year was the final Milestone,
One last Hurray before the inevitable.
Only time...
It's weird to think all adults we know have gone through this...
This crossing the barrier between teen and adult,
and that next year, a whole new crop will be taking part in the same thing
Whoa, my love. My darling. I've hungered, hungered for your touch.

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-04T12:16:00

2007-11-04T20:16:36Z

I think I need my seeping pills back

draggingyoudown @ 2007-11-02T09:55:00

2007-11-02T16:57:31Z

So tired....so very very tired....not enough candy.
fuck list continued

44.VH1
45.Girls
46.Boys
47.Ex's
48.The dog whisper
49.People who think they can talk to animals
50.Talking to animals
51.Porn
52.Naked people as a whole
53.Sluts
54.Prudes
55.My chest
56.Your moms chest
57.Being drunk
58.Not being drunk
59."Woe"
60.Boys who shave far too much
61.Cold Showers
62.Holding back

....WE DONT NEED MEET THE HEADLINES

My fuck list...inspired by teresa

2007-10-31T08:05:54Z

Things I do not like.
1.The first item on a list, it's never easy to start
2.Forgetting
3.Remembering
4.The song "Lips of an Angel"
5.Lips
6.Angels
7.People who pretend
8.People who have the same name as me
9.Cocaine
10.Earthquakes
11.Cars
12.Driving
13.Hair
14.Boy bands
15.Boy band rejects
16.Judgemental people
17.The Color maroon, I mean wtf is it anyways
18.Livejournal
19.Greatestjournal
20.Myspace
21.Growing old
22.Staying young
23.SWEDEN! FUCKING KIDNAPPING COUNTRY
24.Posers
25.People who don't like Canada
26.Anti-Smokers
27.Know it all's
28.Know it nothings
29.Natural Coloring
30.My flab
31.My lack of pie
32.Not seeing the people I love enough
33.My inability to drive
34.Poles
35.Bee's
36.Teddy's Parents
37.Growing apart
38.Being 17.
39.Luckies Not being Sold in SC
40.People who don't like Luckies....where's bad?
41.Relationships
42.Drama
43.Relationship Drama

....The Fact that the first thing I relate to 43 is MTV
........To be continued

You got your passion you got your drive, but don't you know that only fools are saticfied.

2007-10-26T21:38:29Z

I think theres a point in life when Vienna tires of waiting for you.

Like now, I don't think Vienna's still waiting.
Why is everything so incredibly weird?
In my opinion lives remote needs new batteries, it's been acting wonky for a while.
Where would I be if things hadn't turned out the way they did?
Still an abnoxious teenager struggling through classes that should be easy as pie?
Well who wants that?
Life has a funny way of working it's self out, We all made out predictions on how things would be.
But still even if some of them did turn out positive no one can really predict anything.
I wouldn't have predicted myself a mother at 17, though some how, it doesn't appear odd to me that I am.
Have I changed too much or too little, something seems to be holding me from being truly happy.
Maybe I haven't dealt with life in the best way possible, or maybe things just don't feel real enough when there this easy.
Why did everything seem so much harder when my life was so much easier, when the most important thing I thought about was whether or not I'd still be dating said person at said time to go to said occasion.
How was that so much harder, so much more emotional, then where I am now.
Could I really have grown to the point where nothing I used to care about matters?
Where I'm not constantly depressed? Some how I feel, like my life has turned out to be a movie.
You know one of the corny lifetime ones, but they always make parenting seem so hard.
Can it really be this easy or is something missing?

sorry
RANT!